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Thank you Kay for the kind words, so very sorry about your husband, prayers for some peace everyday...
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1 hour ago, Gwenivere said:
Thank you. Just to keep the record straight, I’m not a brother. I’m a woman. I’m sorry about your sister.
I am sorry Gwenivere I thought I was posting on Al's post...so sorry about your loss also... ❤️
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1 hour ago, AlvinC said:
Sister, you made it here. I am glad. I think about you a lot too. Losing a twin is horrible, I know that. I have been thinking about you today especially because I have been scanning pictures like crazy (pre-digital photographs are becoming like the slide-rule: obsolete), getting ready to make Dorothy's Memorial video for the service. I just did a rough count and I have over 1300 pictures pulled together already and the video may only use 150 of them. But I want to get the best 150 possible, if I can. And your folks almost never took pictures of you separately, so all the young pictures of Dotti are also pictures of you. Occasionally I get stuck trying to figure which of you I am looking at.
I love you too Sister, and I am really looking forward to seeing you for the Memorial.
My anxiety medicine is finally to work, and this morning I woke up with almost no symptoms for the first time in a long while. So, I dived right in on working on the video. Forty-six and a half years makes for a lot of memories, and lots of pictures.
I hope you are okay, and moving forward with this terrible grieving. Dorothy was a very special woman and I will miss her until the day I die. I know you will too.
I have the grandkids coming over today so I can watch them for a couple of hours and that should cheer me up. They are so precious.
Yes I finally decided to do this, it does help for sure, and I am so glad the meds are finally working, mine are also, I had to add one to my current one to get through this grief.. they do help, plus I have been on the treadmill everyday since she passed except maybe a few Sundays..It helps me to think of something else, and her picture is on the wall by the treadmill and I smile at her... the grandkids will cheer you up for sure.. they always do, take care, I will see you at the memorial.
I am not as proficient as you on the computer, so sorry I posted on the wrong one...oops
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32 minutes ago, AlvinC said:
That was posted by Dotti's twins sister. She thought she was talking to me, and somehow quoted your post. I don't know what happened but it was definitely a mistake by her.
I am so sorry I thought I was posting on Al's post....very sorry.
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On 7/23/2021 at 1:00 PM, AlvinC said:
I'm going through my days with little direction. I wake up and check my email and then try and find something to hold my attention. I had one little bright spot pop up, when I found that if I put on some easy listening instrumental music, I could do a bit of writing. I added a couple of chapters to a book I have been working on this year. I haven't been able to work the plotting out on paper first as I used to do, and I may have to go back and redo it all over again, but just being able to write at all felt positive. I had a followup appointment yesterday with my doctor, to see how my anti-anxiety medication was working. It definitely has helped some with the anxiety, but my body doesn't like it much, so the jury is still out whether or not I will keep using it, or will switch to something else. Time will tell.
I have nowhere to hide. My father was an alcoholic and that pretty well messed up my childhood, and I swore that I would never do that to my wife and kids. So, I have done very little drinking in my life, and so I can't see me getting drunk to solve my problems. I don't do any recreational drugs, and I even gave up smoking in 1998. So, it's me and my grief going head to head, with just a little assist coming from my anti-anxiety meds. (The place where I live doesn't allow pets, not even a goldfish. No help there for me.)
Every day I ask myself, "What's the point of all this?" I have no goals left me. So, I am poking around trying to find something that matters to me that I can pursue. Maybe, if I can get my focus back, I can make YouTube videos again. Maybe I can find something else that matters to me. I write because I enjoy it, and I can use it to help me sleep at night. I have no thought of selling it. And now the only reading audience that mattered to me, my wife, is gone.
So, I am treading water in a river that is carrying me along, with no knowledge of what lies ahead, and no way to know when that will change, if ever. I just never really faced the fact that this day could come so soon. Deep inside, I knew it could come, but I lived in denial, until I was slapped in the face with the event itself. What a mess.
I am so very sorry brother, I think about you as much as I think about Dorothy. I can only imagine how hard it is for you now that she is gone. She was your everything and you were her everything. I love and care you you brother.
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On 7/18/2021 at 7:49 PM, Gwenivere said:
I even find going to sleep a bit dreaded as I know I’ll have to wake and get up. Definitely hate it. I’m wondering if I’m becoming antisocial as I got more depressed meeting with some people I see every Sunday. Just w sited to leave and be home even tho I’m so lonely. Definitely going to be a topic for my counseling this week. Have 2 Zoom meetings Monday and I find them more comfortable. A few months ago I disliked them for lack of real contact. I really have no idea what is happening to me. All I want to do is cry. I can’t stand the pain and my options.
I'm so sorry brother, wish I could take your pain away.. I do my share of crying also, usually every night when I lay down to go to sleep. I am the opposite of you, sleep is very hard for me, that is when I think about her more and see her in my dreams, different times we had so much fun together.. I love you brother, and praying time will bring you a little peace.
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I guess I am still upset that the way she died is making me crazy cause there are vaccines available now for Covid, and she didn't believe in the vaccine. I wish she would of got it, and hopefully then she would still be here with us. I have not had contact with her for about eight years due to a disagreement we had in 2013, but I have never stopped loving her and checking on her thru her website DWLZ or her facebook. Neither one of us would start a conversation with the other, we are both stubborn, I guess, and now I wish I would of contacted her sooner. I did talk to her before she passed away but that was not enough time with her.. I am so sad that I will never have the chance to make amends with her and that I will never see her again. I definately feel for her husband Al, my brother, because they were married for just 12 days shy of 45 years and did everything together.. I do better during the days, but at night I dream of her and all the fun things we did together and with Al..She was alot of fun and loved people like me.. I miss her beyond words...love her forever... ❤️ ❤️
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My twin sister, Dorothy died on May 29th, 2021 from Covid Pneumonia
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I have had days where every time I see my sisters picture, or think of her I cry, today was especially hard for me. I was on the treadmill and for some reason I couldn't get her out of my mind, and just started crying uncontrollable while I was walking on the treadmill.. I kept up my pace and did 30 minutes, but my tears kept coming for some reason. Most days I am okay with everything, but just out of the blue, the memories flood my head and the tears come very easily. My faith keeps me grounded, plus my loving husband also..