LizLovesAaron4ever

Thank you for the kind words. I'm reaching out to friends and family and trying to keep myself busy, while not ignoring my grief. I know people have different beliefs and even some with same disagree, but I really hope we get to see our family and friends again someday. I know someone who lost her daughter and we were talking when Mother's Day was approaching. She said she asked her daughter to be waiting for her at the gates and her daughter told her "no, momma, I'll be in the fields picking wild flowers for you".

I lost my best friend on Saturday, 7/2/22. He passed in his sleep, unexpectantly. My friend was there for me when I lost my mom. We met dating, but decided we were better off as friends and our relationship blossomed from there. We both had some shared pain related to past relationships and really leaned on each other for support. We planned to take care of each other in our golden years. I can’t get past not being there for him when he left earth. I feel like I let him down. It’s strange, but the pain feels worse than when I lost my mom. I feel so hopeless. I know it will take time, but right now it’s so dang hard. It comes in waves. The hardest thing for me is he’s the one I would call right now to help me feel better. Every time I think “call Aaron” I remember he’s gone. I even feel selfish. I’m not the one who died, why am I complaining. Any chance they have WiFi in Heaven? Just in case, I love you Aaron!