You are not alone on this one, at all. Every single day, I set a goal to go out and do something, anything. But it never happens. I sit at home and do anything I can that has to do with Brent (my best friend who passed). I'm normally a very, very social person but that person is gone now. I only go to the grocery store and nessesites like that and when I am at the store or whereever, thoughts of what I can do in memory of Brent when I get home. I know from everyone telling me that this is not healthy but I'm not doing it because I want to, it just is what it is. Besides, the few times that my friends have dragged me out, I always ended up in hysterics and tears no matter where we were and they had to bring me home...I just don't enjoy being out around people right now that are happy and having a good time when all I can do is make it through this day so I can go to bed, then get up and survive another day tomarrow. The only person I will go out with, anywhere, at a drop of a dime, is Brent's brother..thats it. I wish I had an answer instead of stories of disallusion, but just know your not alone. Hang in there.
