I lost my 4 year old daughter only a week ago. at birth she suffured a massive stroke and it resulted in cerebral palsy,epilepsy,lung complications,etc.She passed away due to the flu and lung problems.I had her when I was only 15 years old and because of her medical problems I spent every day for almost 5 years taking care of her.She spent alot of time in the childrens hospitals,But I was always right there with her.I miss her so much and it hurts so bad to know that this time she isn't coming home with me.It just does't seem real to me that horrible things like this can happen to such beautiful children.Taking care of her and my 3 year old daughter is all I have ever known,and now it feels a huge piece of my heart is gone.I am so confused about how I feel,and honestly I don't know what to do now that a big part of my life is missing.I would give anything to have her here with my agian,but it seems so selfish because during her life she had to suffer so much.I'm am just hoping that by joining this group I will get to chance to talk with peolpe who know how I feel and what I am going through.
