I lost my mother 4 years ago to lung cancer. Recently my boyfried lost his mother to lung cancer. I was very close to my boyfriends mom. I felt like she was a second mom to me. It was a relief to have a mother figure again. But now I have lost both my mother and my mother figure. I watched both of them die, but when I watched my boyfriends mother die it was 10 times harder. It seemed that all the emotions I had bottled up about my mom came to the surface. I feel like I am dealing with two deaths at the same time. I am in so much pain right now, and I feel like I have no one to talk to. Since my boyfriends mothers funeral, my boyfriend and I have been fighting constantly. It breaks my heart that we are turning on each other. I need his support, but he has so much going on inside him that he can not be there for me. If he gets angry at me, I just break down and cry because it hurts so much. I don't know what to do with myself.
