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Mama died on 5/30/07. I still feel so bad! I never dreamed of not having her here. I live next door to mama and daddy. I have still been going out to the house everyday since she died. I am at the point though - that I feel like if I cry or start talking about mama when I am around people including some of my family - that it's like I'm not supposed to. Well I can't forget my mama. I was with her 50 years. She was 84. I don't feel comfortable crying in front of them. I know time goes on - but it's hard not to be this way. So when I go to bed at night - that is my cry time. I miss her so much! Seems like I have had to do a last of "firsts" lately. Her first birtday not with us, a store I go into without her just things like that. Yesterday I had a tooth pulled and went out there and layed on her bed like I used to do. That was a first also since she died. I don't believe it gets any easier - some people say it does - but I don't think so. I can be driving down the road and all of a sudden it just hits me like a brick - mama is gone.
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Yesterday started very emotional for me. Mama's 85th birthday! I went to the mausoleum for awhile. I cried the whole way home. I bought 2 birthday balloons and wrote on them different things - like Happy 85th birthday in heaven, etc. I let them go and watched them go way way up! It was a sad day - I kept thinking now what would I have gotten mama for her birthday today! Well the last part of the day after crying alot - was a bit better! I miss her so much! When I went to the mausoleum - Virginia a girl that works in the office told me mama's picture and poem had come back. It is an 8x10 - a face picture of mama with a ocean background and a really pretty poem. It also showed born and died dates! That was emotional too!
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Evidently my computer is slow or something today and the posts are not showing up. But my mom's birthday is coming up on 7/7/07. She died on 5/30/07 at the age of 84. I am 50 and feel as though my world is shattered! I miss mama so much! My son, granddaughter and myself wrote on a balloon Sat. and let it drift away into the sky - it when way up in the clouds almost as if going to heaven. I am going to get 2 or 3 more balloons for mama's birthday and do the same with them as a rememberance to her. I don't know but everyday seems so hard. I live next door to them - my daddy is also 84. So I am in their house everyday. I try not to go into her room that often. It just hurts so bad! I never really dreamed of being without my mama.
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You aren't alone. I lost my mom on 5/30/07. She was 84. I am 50 - I almost feel like a child - I really really miss her. I live next door to her and my dad. They celebrated their 64th wedding anniversay on 4/14/07. On 4/19/07 she was diagnosed with lung cancer in both lungs - never even smoked. I don't go into her room either unless I need to for something. In her bedroom everything is exactly like it was. It will be a long time before I can ever do anything with it. I go in there and her coat is laying on the bed - I pick it up and it smells just like her. I am so sad! I know my dad is too! Everybody says it gets easier - but I don't know I was so used to seeing her everyday! I look forward to knowing I will see her again! My thoughts and prayers are with you!
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I MISS MAMA SO BAD TODAY! I AM AT WORK - AND IT'S SO HARD TO FUNCTION. I FEEL LIKE I COULD JUST GO OUTSIDE AND LAY DOWN IN THE YARD AND CRY, CRY, CRY!
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My mom passed away on 5/30/07. She was diagnosed with lung cancer in both lungs on 4/19/07. She was 84 yrs. old. I am 50. I miss her so - I know I was so lucky to have her for 50 years with me, but right now I feel so lost without her. I live next door. I was around her everyday and called her from work. My daddy is doing ok. He is 84. I know it is hard on him. They were married 64 years on 4/14/07. I feel so alone without her - I hope somehow my pain can go away somewhat. I just feel sick to my stomach - I go in her room and pick up her coat and it smells just like her.
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First of all, I am so sorry for your loss! I lost my mama on 5/30/07. It is still so hard and unreal. I still have my daddy. He is 84. I too think about someday what will happen to their house and property. I have 3 older brothers I am the youngest daughter - age 50. I was raised there and now live next door to them. I can't bear the thoughts of someone else living in their house and everything gone. My thoughts are with you!