hello theresa, i hope you're getting some sleep at night and taking care of yourself along the way. anyway, i lost my mom 3 months ago tomorrow and her birthday is coming up and i am empty. she suffered another massive stroke, which she had had also 4 years ago and left her paralyzed on her left side. she was completely wheelchair bound. she had her first stroke when she was only 59 and died at the age of 63. i have no father so my mom was everything. i have a 9 year old daughter who shares her birthday, which is really difficult for all of us and a 2 year old son. i am so sad that my son won't really remember her and my daughter was her "princess olivia". this is all so hard and i talk to my mom all the time, which right now doesn't help it just reminds me that she isn't here. i am so lost without her. i have a wonderful husband and support from friends, but sometimes i just want to be alone and cry. i hope you are able to find some happiness with the holiday season and know that your dad would not want you to miss out on the good times. i will say a prayer for you and your dad. merry christmas, kim