bigone

It's been nearly a year since I lost my beloved dog Grunt. He was a white German Shepherd I had since 1990. He and I would have fun together, play rough and have a ball. He was loyal and loving, and freindly to be around. Well, he got sick and old, and I had to put him down. It was very painful and agonizing for me. I cried when I left the animal shelter, and it will be a long time before I ever get a pet again.....

I know how it is to be far away where your mama is buried. Mine is too. When I return to see my family, I will see her grave and leave flowers, cards, gifts, etc.

Well, May the 8th is Mother's Day of course. I was just thinking about my mother, and how I used to get her a card and a present yearly. Now that she is no longer with us, I just broke down and cried thinking things wouldn't be the same. It was such a nice, special occasion for me and Mama and now I don't have it anymore....

I know what you mean. I know I have to carry on, which is what I'm doing but it;s quite difficult.

I know exactly what you mean. I just lost my mother, and I'm also glad she's in heaven free from pain too.

Well, last December, my mother would have been 67. I thought about her most of the month. I ended up playing the song "I'll always love my mama" by the Intruders, and I sat in the corner and cried. I thought about the great times I had with her along with the rest of my family. I was also mad that cancer had to take her out of here. I'm trying to go on with my life, but there will always be that void with her being gone...

You've got to carry on, man. Losing my mother devastated me too. After all, she had been my closest ally at times, and she was my anchor. But one thing my mother told me before she passed, was that I carry on when she passed. Stay strong.

I know the same feeling. When my mother died, I have felt so alone. Right now, I'm in the house but I feel so empty considering she's not there anymore.

Wednesday my mother died of colon cancer. It just crept up on her like a spider. I had been living with her, and we always had great times eating Thanksgiving and Christmas dinner together. We always sat and talked together about anything whether it was news,sports,politics,music,etc. This was a big blow to me personally. I had just put my dog to sleep, but NOTHING could have prepared me for this. My mother had been sick and couldn't get around as much, but it got worse until she had to go to the hospital. That's when the doctors told me she had colon cancer that was terminal. I saw her in the nursing home daily, and I chatted with her until I couldn't chat with her no more. She became less and less responsive, but she could hear me. Even worse, she had had considerable amounts of pain and couldn't even walk. I just wish I had been there to say goodbye. When my co-workers brought me to the office and told me the news, I just bawled over like a baby. When I saw her after she died, she laid there with her bible in her hand, and I kissed her and prayed for her. I went home and played the "Memories Of Love" suite by the band Chicago, and I pulled out the scrapbooks of her and us(my family), and cried my eyes out. I'm still reeling from the sorrow, and it's going to take me a while to get over her death. She was my best friend and backbone. I'll get through this, but things don't seem the same to me no more...