Tan Sim

Hi, I am new to hovforum.. I have lost my father 2 weeks ago. 2 weeks ago today, he was still alived but already very ill. I didn't see the end was coming and still went on as usual to work. This has haunted me ever since and every moments I am repeating those last hours of his life which I werent around to accompany him. How lonely he must had felt though my mom and brother were at home. I always thought how cruel I am to just left him dying. Couldnt seems to forgive myself.