Leah

Hugs Derek and Carson!!!!!!!!!

oh Lily (((hugs))) I know the place you are in. And I totally understand about the pets, the day before Jerry was killed he adopted a 4 month old puppy, Scrappy came to live with us and our 9 year old dog Bootie. Then after Jerry was killed I went back to the same rescue and adopted another puppy I named Dexter. They have been my breath at times, they give me so much unconditional love. For me, rescuing these two has given me a sense of purpose, actually it is a trade because they are rescuing me.

Hugs,

Leah

Hugs Teny, I am only 7 weeks into this so have no advice, only love & hugs.

Kathy, what a tribute you gave your love.

And Double Jo, my girlfriend keeps telling me that the only way through this is through this, your comment to Kathy made me finally understand what she means. Thank you.

Hugs,

Leah

Hugs Kim,

This weekend has been especially hard, they say all first's are the worst. So this is our first 4th of July without our husbands, they call it Independance Day......like you I am very sad.

Hugs,

Leah

Sending hugs and prayers to all.

I have been reading this board for a few weeks, just had not gotten up the courage to register until now. Part of me doesn't want to face this, the other part knows I have to.

My name is Leah and I am 46 years old. On May 25th Jerry and a friend went for a Motorcycle ride, a few hours later I got the phone call, there has been an accident. When I got to the hospital they told me that Jerry didn't make it.

Jerry was 47. We had been married 17 years. I feel at a complete loss, he was my other half....

I have two kids from a previous marriage who Jerry raised as his own. He was never able to have children, so mine became his and our 4 grandchildren were the light in his life.

Most days I walk that thin line between feeling as though this is just a dream and I will wake up and he will be here and feeling as if I am in a nightmare and praying someone wakes me up. Does that make sense? I went back too work and am "functioning" I am trying to figure out how to pay bills etc on one income instead of two. Trying to make it through each lonely night.....just trying to remember to breathe.

I bought the book I wasn't ready to say goodbye and found this board, which I am so thankful is here.

Hugs to all.

Leah