My name is Pauline, I lost my beloved dad on 5th August 2002 to suicide. My dad was 75yrs old, and he was in hospital when he took his life. I have so many unanswered questions which I know I will never get answers to, but it is so hard to just 'let go' of them. I am on only child, and feel so alone now my dad has gone. I also feel very guilty because I didn't go to see my dad very much when he was in hospital, he had mental health problems and it upset me so much to see him that way. How I wish I could go and sit with him now, hold his hand, talk to him, but of course I can't. I find it so hard to remember things, normal things, like when I am at work, I often make mistakes because I forget to do something, or get something worng. I hate feeling like this, and wish I could feel 'normal' again. Thanks for listening to me. Pauline
