scref Posted October 5, 2010 Report Share Posted October 5, 2010 My 27 year old sister passed away suddenly on July 31st. We have received autopsy confirmation that her heart was bad, but she had never been diagnosed with any heart issues. She left behind a beautiful 3 year old daughter that my mother is now raising. I am the oldest sister and I always prided myself on taking care of my 2 sisters and baby brother. Now that we are going through this grief I feel so very weak. I have had to be put off work for an extended length of time, my days are filled with Dr's visits, counselling visits, grief groups. I myself have a 5 year old daughter that I have to keep living life for. Some days it is just so hard to even get out of bed. To make the situation that much more difficult, I life in Nova Scotia, Canada, and my family is all in California. I got to go there and spend 2 weeks with them and help plan the services and say goodbye to my sisters earthly body. My youngest sister begged me not to leave her alone with her grief, and I felt horrible. I feel like I need my mom, my other sister, my brother to get through this grief. I want to hold my niece, the part that my sister left behind for us. I know there is no magic time line when things are going to get better. I just wish that this big ball in my stomach would ease, the panic attacks would ease, and I would be able to sleep. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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