Where did the love go

[MPDuluth]

I want to be heard. Don't I deserve it? Doesn't she deserve to know the truth? 

The truth is complicated. 

I knew all along that this wasn't going to end well. 

I was so afraid to love her.

But more afraid to lose her.

I've written her several emails today. Deleted them all before sending. 

I want the perfect words to describe how it all went wrong, to make it right again.

 

 

[MPDuluth]

Some days I am OK leaving things be. 

They say love is not about selfish wants. They say love is helping the other with what's best for them.

But my conflict is I was what's best for her. "I did love you. And it was real."

Then some alien took her over and made her decide for both of us that our relationship doesn't have a chance in hell.