Fi. There is nothing wrong with you. I would say that you are probably in shock. Shock does funny things to you. Trust me, the crying will come!! I do it all the time. I lost my husband, my best friend, the ONE person I could always count on, one year and 13 days ago. Today is my 51st birthday and I miss him terribly!!! This morning I read some of the birthday cards he had given me in the past because that way I felt as tho he had given me one today. Needless to say, I was sobbing for most of the morning before I left for work. I know what you mean about feeling guilty for not crying for a few days. I feel that way, too, sometimes. Time gets away from us and the next thing you know it's been days. That is not to say that I have not thought about him a million times in those days! They would totally understand. They do not WANT us to cry all the time - we need to get on with life and you know that's what they would want us to do. So far, going into my 2nd year without him, it's been harder than this time last year. That's because I was in such shock then and only going thru the motions and this year the reality has really sunken in. We are always here to listen and to help if we can! We're all on this lonely road together!!!! I hope you have more good days than bad ones! My thoughts are with you. Take care. Patti
