You wonderful, wonderful people. Just reading the courage that you have faced gives me hope that I will come out on the other side of this a happy healthy person again. Bandit was my top priority and he and I were together 24/7 for the past 7 months as he was no longer able to stay at home alone, the anxiety was too much for him and he was doing harm to himslef and the furniture to try and get out of the house to find me. Now I hear his ghost whispers all around me, and I can smell his sweet hot breath just every now and then. It is just so, surreal! I love that dog more than anything and I know he would have hung in there with me until his last breath. You are right though, and I take comfort in your vet's words of saying she would rather euthanise too early rather than too late. The struggle is was this too early? I am not sure, all I know for certain is that he could not survive being in a kennel for 7 days when I go on vacation and he could not stay with friends due to his anxiety and ripping up someone else's home. He had not been sleeping through the night anymore and had lost feeling in his back feet. My head said it was time to take the high ground and set him free. I think my heart just has not come close to catching up to my head yet, therein lies the disconnect. Tonight I will cry until I sleep. Thank you again for responding, it helps to know that I can cry here and be safe doing so without judgement from other's who have never gone through this anguish. Kim