My name is Talia and my boyfriend Marc died on Thursday 02/19/09. He was 51 years old and the only man I've ever loved and trusted. I am now 7 months pregnant with his baby. Its not fair he was taken from us before we could start our family and get married. He died suddenly and unexpectedly of a heart attack as a result of an undiagnosed Coronary Artery disease. There were no warning signs or symptoms and he appeared to be healthy. He was in perfect shape, he excerised and ate healthy on a regular basis and he would try to make me do the same so we'd be able to live our lives together for as long as possible but little did we know, he had no chance. He wanted to live for a long time so he could be with me and our baby, he loved life and couldn't wait for her to be born and for us to get married after her arrival. This will be my first child and would have been my first and only marriage. For him it would be his 3rd child and second marriage. its not fair, he deserved to have a second chance at a family- thats all he wanted was a family that loved him as much as he loved us. I can't take the pain of him being gone. He won't be there for the birth of our little girl. He'll never have the chance to hold her and look into her eyes. I'm all alone without him- this isn't the way things are supposed to be. We knew each other for over a year and a half since July 2007 when i started working at his job. We started going out January 2008 and I moved in with him that May. We knew that there was no one else we wanted to be with for the rest of our lives except each other. We were in love with each other from the very beginning and our love grew with each passing day. We spent every single moment with each other. He always wanted to be around me for everything. This is so hard cause I need him here and he is gone and never coming back. I don't know how to live without him- he was always there for me. He was my life, my world, my best friend and he was everything to me. I can't live without him. Everyday is worse than the next, I cry all the time and i have been having panic attacks since he died. I'm severely depressed. People have told me I will be okay and it will get easier but I'm not okay and it gets harder everyday. I hate waking up because it's another day I have to live without him. I hate it and i hate everything. What is the point in doing anything if he is not here with me? Why did this have to happen to me when i can't handle it?