jescole

Leeann, My name is Jescole and this is my first post. My husband passed away April 27th after fighting lung cancer for 11 months. He too was very quiet and didn't talk alot about his disease...I think I found the solution when I asked him if we could set up a place in the computer so that we could both write to each other...and document how he felt health wise and to write about fears, expectations etc.. I then would write if I found something online about a new treatment, drug....I would find people on forums that were winning their battle with lung cancer as a way to support him so he would continue to fight the fight. He also upon diagnosis was computer illiterate, so this was one of his goals...he was finally going learn his way around a computer... What ever came of the documentation...I printed it and have found great comfort reading it...My grandbaby who he helped raise for the last 3 plus years will be able to read it when she gets old enough and know that gampy loved her fiercely...Once he started to post he shared his fears, he as able to then talk about wanting to die here at home and he was able to tell me how much he loved me...all on paper!!