I can completely understand what you are going through, my superman passed away about 4 months ago. Your post hit so close to home when you mentioned not walking you down the isle, and ever spoiling your children. Those things went through my head eventually,and I couldn't stop crying for days, just about that! Your story really inspired me. I feel like maybe I can get through this. I have been trying so hard to be strong, I forget that crying and taking time to grieve and leaning on loved ones is absolutely nescessary. thank you so much