fritzygirl

Hello Nat, Sorry for your loss, It has been 7 months since my husband passed away from lung cancer. It was the typical chemo, radiation, etc. he was always healthy and then one visit to the doctor for testing before a surgery and boy our lives changed. Fortunatly,for his sake he did not suffer too long, only 6 months. It was a difficult 6 months. We were sole mates for 23 short years. Everything was and still is crazy. Everyone just wanted me to go to the doctor for pills. Well I need to be functional, and pills are just not for me. I need to be in control. I feel like I don't have a heart anymore and I just go through the motions of day to day life. I have plenty to keep me very busy, but griefing is very exausting too. I too, have learned this in a short amount of time you must keep yourself healthy and keep working on going forward. you will have good and bad days, times to cry oceans, and times to cry just a little. You will remember something that your wife would have said or done that will make you smile, and you will have some comfort during this rough time. I am also new to this site and have been reading before I posted and it has been very comforting and helpful for me. I hope it will do the same for you. Take care. fg