michelle08

Hi Deb It is so good to hear from someone that understands how you feel. Yes, it is a lonely process and maybe 5 hours out of a day that I'm not crying,praying. I read the poem "If I could just phone " and if only. I'm sitting here at 10:23pm crying my eyes out trying to get the right thoughts about everything. I know it is hard but with friends like you and this site is so amazing. I have his parents and a sister and brother and etc... but they blame me and they don't speak to me anymore since the funeral. I am trying to move on and with the good lord above it will happen soon. If ever you need someone to talk to or just listen please feel free to drop me a line or email me at mmrood@yahoo.com. I check this forum almost everyday. You are in my thoughts and prayers. Michelle

I will always love you and you will always be in my heart. We were the love of each others life. Baby I miss you so much.As I am writing this the tears are flowing but that's to let you know that you are still alive in my heart. Happy Birthday on Thursday I LOVE YOU Michelle

Hi I'm Michelle and I know exactly what your going through. I just loss my husband of 10 years at the age of 50 to alcohol. It has been a living hell for me because we moved here to Arizona in 2001 and I never thought that in 9 years I would be along without anyone. It just seemed like over the past year and half it was worse. I did leave him for about two weeks and we saw each other everyday and then the day before we were to move back into our house together I came over after work to check on him and he was dead in our bathroom floor. I called 911 and then ICU then HOV. It was about 1 week total but was already brain death. It is a living nightmare to me. His birthday will be this coming week and it is so hard. I buried him on March 8th 2010. Since then I have loss my job, none here in Arizona and I think I am the one that has hit rock bottom now, I just wanted to tell you I know how you feel and I'm here for you .