My other half died in from suddenly in
hospital 3 years ago in April.everyday is excruciating,
I find it's literally a struggle just to get through each day.
I was only24 wen he passed after a brief illness(he was38)
I swear when he passed I felt my heart rip into pieces an I'm
Not entirely sure how I'm still here.... Wen I try to sleep at night,
I close my eyes an all I can see is him dyin over an over again,
It feels like I'm bein tortured. this man gave me something I'd
never had before:self confidence an self worth... Also id alway believed
That people where exaggerating wen try spoke of wat feels like electricity
Surging through them just at a slight touch.i never believed in soulmates
either.untill I met him very quickly I felt the surge of electricity an knew we
were ment to be! An after just Havin him for a few short months he was torn
Away from me an I feel empty an lost...wen people ask me how long we were
Together my answer is not long enough it feels like ov been ripped off somehow
It feels very wrong that we only got a few month with each other.i still love him as much today
As I did the moment we met....my only comfort is that I told him everyday how happy he made me
An how much I love him...but yet I find my most frequent thought is that I wish I could've actually died too
Rather than it just feelin like I did. I feel like I'm missin a part of my soul.
I never used to cry now it's pretty much all I do...if I talk to my friends I can tell it just makes them uncomfortable
So I stop...I don't think I can ever get past this an feel as if I'm now just waitin till my life ends too