GordosMom

MartyT and Kaanen, Thank you. MartyT, Thank you for the link to the articles, they have helped. Kaanen, Thank you for checking up on me. I am doing better. Yes that is my little angel Gordo in the picture.

Kaanen, Thank you for checking on my post to see how I was doing. I am doing a little better but its still hard for me to be home. Everything reminds me that he is not here anymore. I have been reading articles that others on here have sent my way and they have helped. It is nice to know that there are people out there who care what someone else may be going through. Please post a picture of Raleigh when you feel up to it. Best wishes and hugs for you and your family.

I just wanted to thank everyone who has commented and has taken the time to read my story. I appreciate the support and suggestions. Deep down I know I did the right thing but its going to take a long time for me to accept it. Being able to read other peoples experiences, I know I am not alone and my heart goes out to anyone who is going through this or has gone through this.

Thank you. Thats why this has been so hard for me. If he had passed in the middle of the night I would still be in pain but I dont think I would feel guilt. I just feel like who am I to say when a pet should live or not? I hate that I had to make that decision. This is the first time I have ever had to put a dog down myself. I had a childhood dog that I left behind at my parents when I got older and my mom ended up taking her to be put down when she got sick. To this day I still have regrets that I didnt take her with me. She never got the proper medical care. I promised I would never let this happen to any of the dogs I have now, they are my babies. I currently live alone and they are who keep me company and I feel safe to have them. I just looked at the rainbows brindge site and it is beautiful. Thank you for sharing it with me.

Dear Kaanen, Thank you for the coments you left on my post about my dog Gordo. I definately know how you are feeling right now. I also put the tv on to try to get my mind off of what happened. My husband works overseas so my dogs are who I spend my time with and who I talk to. I have three more dogs but things just dont feel the same anymore. i find it the hardest to come home because he always greeted me with a high pitch cry while my other dogs barked every time I got home and I will never hear that anymore. Try and surround yourself with family and friends. So far thats the only thing that has made feel a little bit better. When my mom and sister go back home, Im left feeling alone in this home and thinking about Gordo not being here. Hang in there and Im so sorry for your loss. Raleigh was a great dog and he knows how much you and your family love him.

Thank you for your kind words and taking the time to read about my Gordo.

I found out two weeks ago that my chihuahua had a tumor in his pancreas and was told there was not much they could do for him. Dr. said I could see a specialist but it would be costly and he didnt feel they would even be able to do anything for him. He wanted me to take Gordo the next day to be put down. I couldnt bring myself to do it because he was still eating and happy to see me and he was getting up on his own to go outstide. I spent the last week and a half making him special food that he could digest but during the past weekend things just seemed to be getting worse. Thursday morning he got up from where he was laying and he started slipping when he was walking, after some time and even right before he was put down he was still walking but I was scared because the Dr. said he was suffering but that I still had the option to bring him home but more then likely I would be back in to put him down in a few days to a week. Now I feel like I made the wrong decision and that I didnt do enough or try hard enough for him. I feel like he still wasnt giving up and I did. Over the past two months when I noticed some early signs that something was wrong with him, I originally took him to a different pet clinic. The Dr. there was treating him for back pain because he believed this is what was wrong but he never mentioned anything about doing blood work and it wasnt till the second visit that he did xrays which he said didnt show anyhting unusual. I had doubts aout this Dr. but I still kept taking him there. When things got to the point where Gordo was throwing up, they did more xrays at this same office and told me he was gonna die that night because his stomach had twisted. I left in tears praying Gordo would make it through the night so I could take him to a different vet and thats where he was diagnosed with the cancer and it turned out he never had back pain or had his stomach twisted. I keep thinking maybe if I had just taken him to another vet originally, surgery might have been an option and I also regret not seeinging a specialist even if I couldnt afford it. I will never know. I found Gordo three years ago and I dont feel like it was enough time but it was enough time for him to touch my heart. I dont feel like he deserved this kind of life, I think he had been abandoned when I found him and he was scared. It didnt take long for him to grow close to me. He was such a good little dog.