I found out two weeks ago that my chihuahua had a tumor in his pancreas and was told there was not much they could do for him. Dr. said I could see a specialist but it would be costly and he didnt feel they would even be able to do anything for him. He wanted me to take Gordo the next day to be put down. I couldnt bring myself to do it because he was still eating and happy to see me and he was getting up on his own to go outstide. I spent the last week and a half making him special food that he could digest but during the past weekend things just seemed to be getting worse. Thursday morning he got up from where he was laying and he started slipping when he was walking, after some time and even right before he was put down he was still walking but I was scared because the Dr. said he was suffering but that I still had the option to bring him home but more then likely I would be back in to put him down in a few days to a week. Now I feel like I made the wrong decision and that I didnt do enough or try hard enough for him. I feel like he still wasnt giving up and I did. Over the past two months when I noticed some early signs that something was wrong with him, I originally took him to a different pet clinic. The Dr. there was treating him for back pain because he believed this is what was wrong but he never mentioned anything about doing blood work and it wasnt till the second visit that he did xrays which he said didnt show anyhting unusual. I had doubts aout this Dr. but I still kept taking him there. When things got to the point where Gordo was throwing up, they did more xrays at this same office and told me he was gonna die that night because his stomach had twisted. I left in tears praying Gordo would make it through the night so I could take him to a different vet and thats where he was diagnosed with the cancer and it turned out he never had back pain or had his stomach twisted. I keep thinking maybe if I had just taken him to another vet originally, surgery might have been an option and I also regret not seeinging a specialist even if I couldnt afford it. I will never know. I found Gordo three years ago and I dont feel like it was enough time but it was enough time for him to touch my heart. I dont feel like he deserved this kind of life, I think he had been abandoned when I found him and he was scared. It didnt take long for him to grow close to me. He was such a good little dog.