Joanne Lombaard

I understand exactly what you feel. I lost my Dad in April, he also passed away alone. I still imagine everything, but I am starting to realise that "what if " changes nothing to make the hurt better. I love my Dad and I know he watches over me and has forgiven me for all I should have done and did not when he was still here, now I have to forgive myself. I feel with you, stay strong and try focus on the good memories. Joanne

This is my first post as a new member and I need some help. My Dad died on 19 April 2014 very unexpectantly. He was 90 and still independant, driving his own car and living in his own retirement village house. Lately I am thinking of him so much I feel almost haunted. I feel all this guilt that I did not make the effort to see him more often than once a year, I live just 300 odd km away and did not spend a Christmas with him in many years. I phoned him 2 or 3 times a week. Ho do I process this?!