JLLSAH

My positives for yesterday and today. Yesterday my son and I went on a "leaf hunt". It was a beautiful fall day and we had a great time enjoying it together! We even talked about his daddy without either one of us tearing up, just good memories! Today my positive is that it is veterans day and I am just grateful to live in an amazing free country. Thank you to all who have served and to the families too!

Hello everyone. I am new to this group as of today and have spent many hours reading all of the posts. My husband was tragically killed in a car crash almost two months ago. He was 36 years old and has three children. Our son who is 6 and my two step children who lived with us full time. It seems most people are uncomfortable talking about grief, so I came here! I only knew my husband for a little over seven years and I feel cheated. Not only is he gone now, but the two children I raised for the last six years are gone to their mother now. So my son and I went from a family of five to just us in two days. And at the risk of sounding like a child, it's not fair!! Sometimes my grief is overwhelming, well, most times. I try to be strong and keep a schedule for the sake of my son, but it takes everything I have in me to get through a day. I have actually had people say to me, "Well, at least you weren't married for 50 years and then lost him." Really?! Then maybe I wouldn't feel so cheated. I would have had the life we planned for us and our children. Now all I can do is hope my son remembers his dad and how much he loved him, and do everything in my power to help him. I'm tired of telling people I am okay when I'm not so that they aren't uncomfortable. I am not okay- I don't have my best friend, my soul mate! How am I suppose to be okay? Every moment of every day I miss him and still find it hard to believe he is gone and our lives will never be the same.