Rayon

Thank you for your kind words Amanda. The grief is just too deep right now. God Bless you.

Thank you for your kind words William. I'm sure your mother appreciates hearing from you daily.

Thank you Shelley, everything is so raw right now. Especially the guilt. With time, I hope that heals.

My father died on August 21, 2006 which was his birthday. I feel so guilty, because I never told him how much I loved him when he was alive. I never thanked him for all he did for me and my family. He could be difficult & bad-tempered at times, but I knew he always loved us & would do anything for us. I told him many mean things throughout the years, and was unkind to him at times. Although in his last months we got along better, and he even gave me away at my wedding in February.

He died of cancer, and never told anyone how much pain he was in, because he didn't want to worry us even more. So he was never provided with morphine until two days before he died. Please pray for me, and my family. And please tell your parent's how much you love them when they are alive. You'll be thankful for it at the end.