Orabelle

23 days has passed since my Orabelle passed away and it still hurts. I understand what you are going through. There are times when I'm ok, but most of the time I'm grieving. I just cried again this morning with my husband (he is in Afghanistan) and asking him how come it's still hurting? I thought that as days go by, it'll be easier and it's not.

I am also wanting to talk to one...

Thanks again everyone! It's still a tough day for me. I am back to school after 2 weeks off. I've been to Iraq during the war to work and seen death and cried. I've been heartbroken before. Nursing is a tough course and felt like giving up a couple of times. But losing Orabelle was the hardest of them all. It can't be compared. 19 days and it still hurts.

Thank you for your reply. What means a lot to me is how she was loved and cared for until the end. It was an honor to be her momma for 9 months. It may be short, but I know God gave her to us for a reason.

That picture is forever on my mind.

Thank you! Just talking to you all makes the pain bearable. I'm so glad I found this site. I know one day, I will be ok. I'm gonna take it one day at a time. I was at school today and someone told me to move on since its been 18 days... and I asked her how do you moved on? When she was my life? I guess some people don't understand and I respect that. They have never loved like we did. My dog made me a better person. I am not ashamed to tell them that she may be a dog, but she gave us happiness and she was family, my baby.

Hi kayc, When Orabelle passed away on a Thursday, she was cremated the following day and was able to get her ashes in a cedar box and I got 3 pendants with her ashes on them. I collected her collar, leash, her favorite threats, her hair, flowers that we got from the vet that day she passed away, and the sympathy card from the vet and made a special place for her with her picture. I may be crazy for saying this, but her blankets - I've never washed them and sleeps with them. It gives me comfort. She also loves to chase birds, so I bought a bird feeder in memory of her. 9 months with us isn't a long time, but she captures my heart and soul. The love she gave was unconditional. She will forever be in my heart. I hope she knows that ?❤️?

I'm so sorry for your lost! I know what you are going through right now... I lost my baby 18 days ago. I am still grieving and tears can't stop falling still. Praying for you ?

Today was not really a good day. Tears can't stop streaming down my face. I miss her so much. My heart aches every time I remember her eyes, the way she looks at me, her paws on my face, and her kisses. She was my baby. How do you move on from this? I start school again on Monday and we have a lot of readings to do. I read to divert my attention, but it's not working. I stop and stare at a distance wondering where she is. If she knows that I love her so much.

Thank you all for the kind words. I try to remember the good times with my baby. I loved her so much and if I can just take her sickness, I would in a heartbeat. She was our world for 9 months. So short... But so sweet. I know she is pain free now and probably giving everyone kisses in heaven.

I thought that things will get better as time passes by, but I guess not. The pain is too raw. Every time I misses her my heart aches. I'm a nursing student and she keeps me company when I'm studying at night or when it's too much, she licks my tears away. I feel guilt for putting her to sleep, but she was not living anymore. I miss her terribly. I hope that she knows how much we love her and can't wait for that day for us to be a family again.

I lost my dog Orabelle last May 14. I adopted her last August 2014. She had surgery on her stomach November 2014. When I brought her home after the surgery I thought she's gonna be okay. Took her to the vet again and was sent off to a specialist and found out she had autoimmune meningoencephalitis last December. We gave her the medical and the love that she deserves. After decreasing her prednisone last March 2015, she started acting differently. She loved food, then she became a picky eater. Last Arpil, she started vomiting. Took her to the vet, labs were ok. Vet gave her medicine for N/V. Took her back again this first week of Mayb because she hasn't been feeling well. They did labs and Barium swallow. It was fine. May 11, took her for an ultrasound and result wasn't good. Her stomach was thick and radiologist said it could be from anything including cancer. So I took her to the ER at her neuro hospital. They did endoscopy and found out that her stomach is necrotized. Gave her a 10-15% of survival. My baby was really sick. She had enough going on since November. We wanted to continue on giving her life but her quality of life isn't there anymore. We have to put her to sleep on May 14. It was the hardest thing for us. It feels like a part of me died with her. I've done nothing but cry since I found out that she's not gonna make it on May 11. I miss her all the time. We love her so much. I fell in love with her the first time I saw her face on FB. I don't know how to move on. I have really no one to talk to. My husband is in Afghanistan and my friends doesn't really understand what I'm going through.