I want to say that I'm so very sorry for your loss as I'm new here, just found this forum. I will say that I wish the internet was around like it is now back in 1993 when I went through my loss. My heart aches every time I here of a young child that is suddenly taken from us. I feel you are doing what you need to do, reach out to others who have been there, Talk about your feelings, as I know it is so very hard to do. I know that I felt so alone in my grief and still do at times. I lost my daughter on June 15, 1993 when she was 3 just 2 weeks before her fourth birthday. I had dropped her off to the baby sitter so she could go with her older sister to the city pool to watch her learn to swim. 45 minutes later I got a call to go to the hospital, as they found her floating face down 8 feet away from a life guard/ They had sent her by care flight to Children's by the time I got there she was gone, I know we never think anything like losing our child will ever happen. I'm a grieving father, as father's we don't talk about our feeling as much as we should but I'm the exception. I just want to say that I'm always here to talk or help anyone in any way I can. I have walked so many paths over this time. My blessing go out to you.