thank you all, I know this is apart of the dang process but we sure don't have to like it. I did start going to a support group which meets on Thursdays and I went to my first one last week. I will go a couple more times to see if it's "for me" or not. All the people in the group are a few years into their loss and I don't know if being around emotions is going to be good for me or not, especially if the majority of them are still feeling the same pain as if it happened yesterday.. Does that make sense? I don't want to have anyone think that I think their is a time frame on how we move forward or how long we go through the process because everyone is different. I had my husbands and my Christmas picture on my phones home screen since he died, I had to take it off today because it was too painful to look at. I still have his pictures every where in the house and all of that but the phone picture had to go... I took our wedding bands and my engagement ring to the jewelry to design a necklace that my daughter can wear when she marries and my son can carry in his pocket on the day he marries, there are just thinks that I have to do to feel like I am moving forward, not forgetting but moving forward because if I do not, my mind can get dark and I don't want that.. I hope I am making sense and I hope I don't offend anyone, just trying to do what's best for me and my brain....