BillT

Boogie,

If you feel a need to talk to someone, I am in your general area (Cedar Hill, South DFW).  

My dear Mary Kay has been gone for 6 1/2 months.  I will share a bit of my situation with you:

My Sweetheart was the picture of health at 63 yoa.  She got a headache, which was not unusual for her.  It did not go away as it usually did.  One night, she woke babbling incoherently.  I rushed her to the ER, where the doctors determine there is an infection on her brain.  Surgery is performed, and two weeks latter, she is recovering and scheduled to be transferred to Rehab in a day or two.  I am with her and I determine that her pain is returning, and have the nurse call the doctor.  They rush her to have another MRI and find bleeding in the brain and irreversible massive damage. We took my Darling home to Hospice care.  She died ten days latter, never regaining consciousness. 

 

It comes in waves.  I am crushed.  I cry and I scream in anguish.  Does not matter.  To never hear her voice calling out "I'm home", or saying "I love you!" or "You're MY Baby!"  creates a hollow in me that is bigger than me.  I am nothing but pain without her.  The thought of a future like this is abhorrent.

Boogie, my thoughts and prayers are with you this day.

Bill

 

Maryann,

Sorry to hear that you are having a bad day.  So am I, and am still at the point where the bad outnumber the "not so bad".  Praying that you get some relief soon.  Stay inside in the "cool".  Houston in July is ... (you fill in the blank).

Hugs,

Bill

Katpilot,

Thank you for your response.  It is good of you to share your experience in this journey of grief.  Somehow, it helps me.

Prayer that your journey leads to healing.

 

Bill