Hi guys,
Well, Karen, you are so right when you said that it's very hard for children to understand what we're going through. Last night, I finally told my son, Jason, that I just couldn't make it to see the twins quite yet. And he bluntly told me that this feels like a direct insult to him and his family. What makes it worse is that my first husband, Jason's dad, hasn't been to see the twins yet either, and so obviously, Jason is very hurt. If you knew me, you would know that I'm a very caring mother and grandmother, and I was somewhat sure that he would understand. In fact, before I called him, I called my daughter, Jenny, to talk about this. I told her that I was afraid of hurting Jason's feelings or making him angry, and her response was, "Mom, you can't put that on Jason's shoulders. He has never shown that he would be anything less than understanding, and so you need to trust that he'll understand about this too." Well, we were both wrong.
So what I'm considering is getting a doctor's appt and getting put on anti-anxiety medication and then going ahead with the trip. What do you think?