Hello, I am new to this group and very thankful that I have found this support. I am moving slowly out of shock and now really struggling with the 'why did this happen?' My husband passed away one month ago. He went to the hospital for a pain in his leg and the drs said it was a clot, a muscle protein issue... everything but a bacterial infection. 24 hours later, they were doing CPR on him. He had a flesh-eating bacteria and it was poisoning his system. He was life-flighted to a bigger hospital where they amputated several parts of his body in an effort to save his life. And it was too late to save him. I stayed by his side until they turned the machines off. I am angry. I am confused. He was a wonderful father to our 4 and 6 year old. He enjoyed his children. We did everything together. He read to our children every night. He took care of himself. He wanted to live. I will never forget telling my 6 year old daughter that daddy went to heaven and the look of sadness on her face. I am in the process of helping my 4 year old son understand what's happening. I still catch myself hoping that I will wake up from this nightmare. I have started with one on one therapy and plan to attend another support group in person. I just needed to share my story. Thank you.