Thank you so much for your kind words. It's starting to get a bit less painful when thinking about it but still does hurt nonetheless. I was supposed to protect that kitty form the elements, predators, and injury and I let it down. I can't believe that it happened to me but it did. Wish there was some way I could let it know I didn't mean to hurt it and that I loved it. Knowing that it probably didn't know what was going on and that it went fast does helps a bit, just wish it would have died in a less horrid manner.
My husband isn't good at sympathy or dealing with other people's emotions in general so I've pretty much just had to deal with this on my own. I have had a couple of friends and my parents tell me they were sorry though.
I did read the links and it's a bit helpful knowing this kind of thing can happen to anyone and I'm not the only one who feels like I do when it does.
Thank you again.