So sorry for your pain. I am a Christian and I have hope that I will see my loved ones again. If I didn't have that then life would be so much harder than it is already. You just have to take one day at a time, do things for others, be a friend, get a dog, just don't stay in you grief any more than you have to. Grief can over take you but knowing God has those I love with him gives me a lot of comfort. I pray you find yours.