Patricia B

God this is so hard. It does get easier right?

Thank you all so very very much. The ending was very unexpected and pretty traumatic. I honestly think I haven't fully digested the reality yet. I'm wondering if I'm still in some kind of shock. Things seem so unreal. Also the fear. I feel afraid. Is that usual as well? Talking to others that aren't going through it almost makes me feel worse. Their conversation seems kind, but so casual. So I respond as if I'm in control but I'm actually broken in half. The words are going back and forth but it sometimes feel like I'm watching a movie instead of living it.

I'm 69, my husband was 70. Lost him suddenly June 3rd. We were together as a couple since 1978. Feels like the world has lost all its color. Trying to find the "me" without the "him". Just wanted to introduce myself. Don't even know what else to say... Pat without George