Your experience was EXACTLY like mine.
My husband also died of liver and kidney failure, same reason.
I pushed for him to go get checked and when he did, and I went with him, the "doctor" ignored his symptoms, "too much salt intake!!!!!## The leg swelling. The following week we called 911. He was in hospital for 1 month and passed away. All the same symptoms as your husband. He was rarely lucid. That was super difficult for me and my kids. At least you were blessed with some words. No last words or whisperings. He suffered. Alot.
Regret? ?guilt? Thats me. My husband was 54.
Ive had to pray to God for forgiveness and strength to help me move through the guilt.Ive come to the oint where I understand that God has forgiven me and if God has forgiven, then my husband does too. But its our guilt. We did as much we could. Addicitions are soo hard for the caregivers. What did I overlook? I would have taken care of him. If only he made it home but he went to his real home. God's home.
Terrible loss, so sad.
I understand your struggle Missy, yours is still sooo new. It will be soo overwhelming. One minute at a time. Keep praying for strength and courage.
God has picked me up. He will for you too.
Blessings to you.
Thanks for sharing
A.
