That’s how it feels Kieron one sided, I’m just so lonely I don’t even no if he’s bothered I know he has such a lot going on in his mind I see he does it all just breaks my heart daily, I’m just a shell with nothing inside, I’ve lost so so much weight the more I get upset the more comes off I’m just bone so yeh I do look fragile probably because I am,all my other friends that are also my family are going through the same loss and they all seem to be together along the way with their husbands, I look at them and feel happy they have got that. Maybe if I wasn’t so emotional and didn’t let things get to this it would of been different but I can’t turn back time if only I could 💔.