Mimaka

Thank you!

Thank you! Yes, I do drink smoothies and eat more soup because it is easier. I ran every day before my dad died. I have not been able to get myself up in the morning before work to run. However, I set a New Year's Resolution to get back into running at least three days a week. I started this over my Christmas break because I am a teacher. It has only been two weeks, but I have accomplished that. I am hoping to continue. It has just been so hard to have the energy. I feel guilty all the time when I am doing things and my Dad is not here. Not being able to say goodbye is haunting me all the time.

Hi, I have had the same problem with eating since my dad died in August. I wouldn't be able to sleep if my doctor didn't give me something to help. I keep expecting it to get better, but it hasn't. My Dad had bad lungs for the last three years before he died. However, he was doing better or at least I thought he was. However, this past August one night his heart just stopped. I knew this day would come but since he was doing better, I was not prepared. I also never thought his heart would be what caused him to die. The last day he was alive I didn't go to see him because I had other things going on. If I had known, I would have gone over. I think my guilt is part of why I can't eat. I have started grief therapy and it has helped a little. I have lost a lot of weight. I know how you are feeling. I wish I could offer some sort of solution, but I am still searching. I have never experienced pain like this before. I wouldn't wish this on anyone. The natural order of life is that our parents will die before us, so I wasn't expecting this to be as gut wrenching as it is.