Wow cried my eyes out! I think that is suppose to help somehow . I lost Zeus 2 months ago and I have gone thru the the guilt of "what if I...." I haven't had any new babies in my lap yet. I did want to run out and try to "rescue" a Dane. I knew I wasn't ready. I have dreams that he is still alive which is all good as long as I am sleeping;but when I wake up and remember the "truth" It hurts like Hell and I feel crazy. However Twix,Pino,Sabin,Nissa to name just a few please forgive if I haven't mentioned your pets story I can only cry so much in one day and I can do a good job of that on my own. Forgive my rambling and thank you for sharing your furbabies with us on this board. I wish I could offer some balm of comfort for out tattered and broken hearts but even that is beyond my meager means. It helps very much to know I am not alone in missing my baby boy. I do see that this is a "work in progress" and thank you all very much being here.