Drago's mommy

I think that being a foster home for a husky in limbo is a beautiful idea and I have given it some thought in the past few days. I just don't know how easy it would be to give it up even to a great home if I were to get attatched. I still need some time so that my heart is available for such a task. Whether it to be a foster home or my very own lil husky. It has been a week today that he died and I'm still crying every day. Not all day mind you--but it just hurts. People have shyed away from me in the past few days because maybe they think I should be over it or at least no so emotional. They don't know what to say, so maybe they just think it's better to say nothing. That is why I am so thankful to this site. Whether it be cats or dogs the loss is real and it seems that only other people who have lost their buddies understand. BTW--I am a cat lover!!!!!! I have had 2 cats in my life. Tom died 17 years ago of feline leukemia and it broke my heart. I had never even heard of it and was so mad that I could have prevented it with the immunization. I took him in as a stray and he was already an adult. He used to bring dead critters to me as "gifts". He would be so proud. I do laugh when I think of him because he was such a character. I also had a siamese/tabby mix for 18 years!!!!!!! She was a motor mouth and talked my ears off even in the shower. She would sit at the back of the shower and meow her hiney off!! She greeted me everyday and did a lil highstep prance as her showoff. Thankfully, she did not bring me dead critters haha. I can't have a cat now because my husband is HIGHLY allergic--poor baby. He loves cats but he can't touch or be in a room with one for very long. I think of these two kitties now and smile and laugh. I still miss them but the pain isn't there--only laughs and smiles and good feelings. I hope it will be the same with Drago too. I know it will, it's just very very raw right now.

Ms. Elizabeth, Thank you for being so kind. You seem to have a good loving heart and I have a feeling I'm not the only person to think so! I can't help but feel guilty but the guilt is overpowered by the love,laughs,goofiness, and headaches (haha) Drago gave me. He was a sweet soul. I agree with the advice you gave Mikey. It's hard to see a better way when you are in sorrowful despair and grief. I made a memorial to Drago and took all the pics I have of him and put some into frames and the rest into a photo album. I have everything--his pics, his ashes, his name tag, his papers, his paw print all together in my dining room so that my family and I have a place to go and think about him or cry or whatever. I don't know how long I will leave it there--I guess as long as it takes. I cannot replace Drago and I wouldn't even try. I hope to be able to open my heart to another husky at some time but right now it is just too painful. I have decided to get a husky from a rescue group instead of a breeder though. So many huskies are abused/discarded because they can be very high maintaince and super naughty. One day. This site has helped me so much and I just want to thank you and MIkey for the support. It has made this last week a little less dark.

Hey Mikey, Thank you so much for your kind words. I too lost my kitty Tom some years ago to feline leukima. This was 17 years ago and I still think of him all the time usually followed by a giggle because he was quite the character!! Drago was like my special needs child. Gosh I just miss him so much. I can't even get in my car without crying or thinking of him because his beatiful blue eyes are not looking back at me. It's amazing how connected we get to our pets--they keep all your secrets--they tell noone of your bad habits--they don't care if you brush your hair or if you need a shower. They just love you for who you are with no judgements. You can't say that about any human. My vets office made a paw print of Drago's paw and mailed it to us. It was really sweet of them to do that and I will cherish it but I wish I had known that was coming. I put it with the collection of pictures I had of him. I don't know what I'm going to do with his ashes and this memorial I have made yet. For now it will stay in my dining room. IT will be some time before I'm ready to open my heart to another dog. Unfortunatly, my husband is highly allergic to cats so although I am a "cat person" I can't have one. I love on my mother in laws kitties when we go over and get my fix. My husband loves cats and always pays for it when he caves and loves on them. We will all heal in time I know, it just hurts so much. It is true that although they bring us so much love, happiness, smiles and laughter they are little heartbreaks waiting to happen. Take care and thank you for being so compassionate to all of us on this site.

I have been reading everyone's stories and my heart goes out to each and every one of you who have lost your lil buddies. I have just lost my 12 year old Siberian Husky Drago this week and I was unprepared for just how intense the grief and sorrow was going to be. He was as much a part of this family as any of us 5 humans and my heart is shattered into a million pieces. The guilt of all the times I coulda shoulda spent time with him and didn't is eating away at those broken pieces. The end came too quick and if I had known just how sick my sweeet boy was I would have done anything and everything I could to make him feel better. Although the last time I checked I didn't have the cure for cancer. I should have had the senior blood work done a year ago but because of $$ concerns and the fact that he seemed fine and was still running with my husband we didn't. He seemed healthy other than the obvious signs of aging up until February. We treated what we thought was a bad UTI for a month and a half with meds and a special diet. The last week I was taking him into the vet to get fluids through an IV and truly believed this treatment was going to help. We found out Tuesday through some other testing that he had bladder cancer and one of his kidneys had died and the other was sick. He also had lung cancer (???). We brought him home on Tuesday night to say goodbye to all of us. WHat a terrible night and Wednesday morning was like a bad dream. We took him to the vets office and after tearfully pleading with our vet to fix him no matter what the cost we knew we had to go through with it. Thankfully-he still had the cathather in his arm from the fluids so she didn't have to stick him. He died in my husband's arms with his mommy over his sweet head telling him it was ok and kissing his snout over and over. I'm pretty sure Drago took a piece of my heart with him. I'm thankful he had a peaceful pain free passing but the pain of watching my baby take his last breaths is haunting me in a cruel way. The last few minutes keep playing in my head like a sick joke-a horror movie. I miss him so much and I hope this pain eases sooner rather than later. We should get his ashes back on Monday and I have created a memorial to him with pictures in our dining room so we have a place to go to think about him and remember all the silly loving time we had with him. Monday is going to put us right back into our grief but I am hoping that bringing him home will help to give us closer. Any of you that read this--thank you for taking your time to do so. Please forgive any errors in spelling or grammer because I am a total wreck right now and am just trying to relieve some of this pain. We are all grieving or we wouldn't be on this site so my prayers are with you.