babybrat07

In Sept of 2003 my uncle and his girlfriend went boating together. My uncle jumped in the lake to cool off and came up struggling. His girlfriend and the other couple with them, thought he was playing around. He went under again and never came back up. A dive team searched for him in the water. He resurfaced three days later. After that, my grandfather kind of just started aging and began losing his memory. He was diagnosed with the beginning stages of Alzheimer's. He struggled with it for all these years and this morning around 5 A.M. God took my grandfather home to rest. I'm glad he isn't suffering anymore, but I am really sad that he is gone. I feel bad for my grandmother, they would have been married 51 years this Christmas. He was a wonderful man and amazing grandfather. I love him and am going to miss him so much! Please keep my grandmother and family in prayer! Thanks so much!

Katie

This is a song I recently heard by Carrie Underwood. If you get the chance you should listen to it. You can find it on youtube or on any country radio station. The ending touched me very much. Here is the lyrics.

Temporary Home

Carrie Underwood

From her CD Play On

Little boy, 6 years old

A little too used to bein' alone

Another new mom and dad, another school

Another house that'll never be home

When people ask him how he likes this place

He looks up and says with a smile upon his face

"This is my temporary home

It's not where I belong

Windows and rooms that I'm passin' through

This is just a stop, on the way to where I'm going

I'm not afraid because I know this is my

Temporary Home."

Young mom on her own

She needs a little help got nowhere to go

She's lookin' for a job, lookin' for a way out

Because a half-way house will never be a home

At night she whispers to her baby girl

Someday we'll find a place here in this world

"This is our temporary home

It's not where we belong

Windows and rooms that we're passin' through

This is just a stop, on the way to where we're going

I'm not afraid because I know this is our

Temporary Home."

Old man, hospital bed

The room is filled with people he loves

And he whispers don't cry for me

I'll see you all someday

He looks up and says "I can see God's face"

"This is my temporary Home

It's not where I belong

Windows and rooms that I'm passin' through

This was just a stop,on the way To where I'm going

I'm not afraid because I know this was

My temporary home."

This is our temporary home

I heard this song and It's pretty good.. hope you guys like it.

In this world I walk alone

With no place to call my home

But there's one who holds my hand

The rugged road through barren lands

The way is dark the road is steep

But He's become my eyes to see

The strength to climb my griefs to bear

The Savior lives inside me there

In You're love I find release

A haven from my unbelief

Take my life and let me be

A living prayer my God to Thee

(Take my life and let me be

a living prayer my God to Thee)

In these trials of life I find

Another voice inside my mind

He comforts me and bids me live

Inside the love the Father gives

I don't know if anyone likes Mariah Carey but I heard this song today and came here immediately to post it. It is one of the greatest songs I've ever heard and touched me deeply. If you want to hear the song check it out on youtube or somewhere. Here are the lyrics.. you can decide if you want to hear it. It's Mariah Carey - Bye Bye

This is for my peoples who just lost somebody

Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady

Put your hand way up high

We will never say bye (no, no, no)

Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins

This is for my peoples who lost their grandmothers

Lift your head to the sky 'cause we will never say bye

As a child there were them times

I didn't get it but you kept me in line

I didn't know why you didn't show up sometimes

It's something more than saying "I miss you"

But when we talked too

All them grown folk things

Separation brings

You never let me know it

You never let it show because

You loved me and obviously

There's so much more left to say

If you were with me today face to face

[Chorus:]

I never knew I could hurt like this

And everyday life goes on like

"I wish I could talk to you for awhile"

Miss you but i try not cry

As time goes by and it's true that you've reached a better place

Still I'll give the world to see your face

And I'm right here next to you

But It's like you gone too soon

No the hardest thing to do is say bye bye

(Bye Bye bye bye bye [3x])

Bye bye

And you never got the chance to see how good I've done

And you never got to see me back at number one

I wish that you were here to celebrate together

I wish that we could spend the holidays together

I remember when you used to tuck me in at night

With the Teddy Bear you gave to me that I held so tight

I thought you were so strong

That you can make it through whatever

It's so hard to accept the fact you're gone forever

[Chorus]

(bye bye bye bye bye bye [3x])

Bye bye

This is for my peoples who just lost somebody

Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady

Put your hand way up high

We will never say bye (no, no, no)

Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins

This is for my peoples who lost their grandfather

Lift your head to the sky 'cause we will never say bye

I wrote a new song. I was going to race yesterday but due to unfortunate events I was not able to. My 16 year old neighbor has been in the hospital. She has been battling Hodgkins Lymphoma and recently had hip surgery in hopes of not having to have a full hip replacement. Due to her being in the hospital her mom who is like my other mom wasn't able to go to the race either and she had our shirts and numbers. Either way I'm going to try again next year and in an effort to show I care about the race I wrote this song. If you are a member and lost one of your relatives to Breast Cancer I hope this song helps you. Pray for those fighting, those who won the fight and those who lost the fight. Thanks guys.

Race for the Cure

Chilly October morning

always on a Sunday

get ready to go

it's time to race..

drive to the race site

meet some new friends

some have lost the fight

others won't let it end

Race for the Cure

don't give up the fight

one things for sure

it just feels right

come save a life

its worth fighting for

come and have some fun

Race for the Cure

Walk a single mile

or maybe five

its all worth while

you'll feel alive

Race for yourself

and your loved ones

those who are fighting

and those who've won..

Race for the Cure

don't give up the fight

one things for sure

it just feels right

come save a life

its worth fighting for

come and have some fun

Race for the Cure

For your mother

for your sister

for your daughter

for yourself!!

Race for the Cure

don't give up the fight

one things for sure

it just feels right

come save a life

its worth fighting for

come and have some fun

Race for the Cure

we'll save some lives

it's worth fighting for

we'll have some fun

at Race for the Cure..

I heard this song while watching ER. I had to find out what it was and what the words were because just listening to the song brought me to tears. You have to go and listen to it on youtube because it is just breath taking.

All alone I didn't like the feeling

All alone I sat and cried

All alone I had to find some meaning

In the center of the pain I felt inside

All alone I came into this world

All alone I will someday die

Solid stone is just sand and water, baby

Sand and water, and a million years gone by

I will see you in the light of a thousand suns

I will hear you in the sound of the waves

I will know you when I come, as we all will come

Through the doors beyond the grave

All alone I heal this heart of sorrow

All alone I raise this child

Flesh and bone, he's just

Bursting towards tomorrow

And his laughter fills my world and wears your smile

I will see you in the light of a thousand suns

I will hear you in the sound of the waves

I will know you when I come, as we all will come

Through the doors beyond the grave

All alone I came into this world

All alone I will someday die

Solid stone is just sand and water, baby

Sand and water and a million years gone by

Hello friends,

Some or most of you probably have read my first post. If not I'm babybrat and this is a short version of my story. Since 1999, I've lost a cousin, two step grandmas, maternal grandma and grandpa, great grandma and three uncles. I've endured a lot in such a short time. I feel like I've lost so much but really I've gained so much. I've gained knowledge about Christ our Lord, I've gained belief and faith and most importantly I've gained love. One evening, after my maternal grandma passed away, I was talking with my aunt who lives in another state. She asked me how I could be so strong and not angry with God for taking grandma away from us. These are the words I told her and the words that I hope will help many of you. I told my aunt,

"In the times when I was sad, hurt or angry, God was there. He was not there to bring me down, but to lift me up. I couldn't blame him because I know death is apart of life. All I know is that when I needed him he was there walking next to me and when I couldn't walk anymore he was carrying me. It's just like the footprints poem."

Needless to say she took my words in awe and completely understood why I wasn't angry. I truthfully believe that I helped her in some way and I hope this helps someone out there as well. If you are someone who just doesn't have the faith then thats okay, but if you do have faith then this just might be the help you were looking for.

Hope this helps someone out there..

Love,

Katie

For all you Christians.. this one goes out to you.. this is for those you have lost someone and has not yet given up their faith.. or just for those with faith who need some lifting.. I hope you guys like it.. feedback is appreciated.

Down, come on, get down

get down, get on your knees

get down, get down, yeah

for you are all I need.

Pray, come on, lets pray

get down, get on your knees

get down, get down, yeah

for you are all I need.

For you are my God

and you lift me up

you are my strength

you fill my cup oh oh

So I will get down

on my knees

Oh Lord

You're all I need.

Live, come on, lets live

get down, get on your knees

get down, get down, yeah

For you are all I need.

Love, come on, give love

get down, get on your knees

get down, get down, yeah

For you are all I need.

For you are my God

and you lift me up

you are my strength

you fill my cup oh oh

So I will get down

on my knees

Oh Lord

You're all I need.

I'll get down

On my knees

show your love

to me.........

For you are my God

and you lift me up

you are my strength

you fill my cup oh oh

So I will get down

on my knees

Oh Lord,

You're all I need.

Oh Lord,

You're all I need.

Circle of Life - Katie Truax

Walking, talking, crawling, singing,

one foot in front of the other

sister, daddy, uncle, aunt

mommy, cousin, brother

daughter, son, husband and wife

we're all part of the circle of life

Living in a circle

give our daily bread

never knowing just

whats lies ahead.

Living in a circle

never wonder why

we're walking in this

circle we call life.

Hugs, kisses, nods, wishes

hellos and goodbye

there's a time to be born

and then a time to die

death stabs you like a knife

but thats part of the circle of life

Living in a circle

give our daily bread

never knowing just

whats lies ahead.

Living in a circle

never wonder why

we're walking in this

circle we call life.

Yeah we're living in a circle

we give our daily bread

we never know just

what lies ahead

We're living in a circle

We'll always wonder why

we're living in this

circle we call life.

I too have had dreams of my grandma. It's weird because in most of them she was there but she didn't say or do anything. So even though she was there you could tell she really wasn't there. I remember one dream we were at her house and she lived on a lake.. well my brother had pushed me in and I was so mad so I went and told my grandma and she didn't say anything to me or do anything like get me a towel. I thought how weird is it that she's not doing anything. My guess is she wanted to be there but obviously she couldn't be. She was there in spirit like she always will be. Please feel free to message me if you ever want to talk.. I'm a pretty good listener. Bless you..

Katie

Hello Chris's niece...

I too have lost an uncle.. I've actually lost quite a bit more than just an uncle. I've lost both my maternal grandparents, a great grandmother, a step grandmother, a cousin, and three uncles. I've been to heck and back. The one uncle in particular was my dads brother. He passed away in a drowning incident in 2004. He had gone boating with his girlfriend and another couple. In the spur of the moment he decided to cool off so he took his glasses and hat off and jumped into the lake. He then came up struggling and they thought he was messing around. He went back down again and never came back up. His girlfriend jumped in to look for him but she couldn't find him. All we could do is wait. His body showed up three days later and my dad had to go down and identify him. It was very tough because he was loved by so many. He had three children.. two who barely knew him and one that never will.

I've always felt like I had to deal with death on my own but then I realized that I wasn't alone. I realized that there was someone walking next to me. And in hard times when I just couldn't walk anymore he carried me. I kept my faith with the lord and he has kept my strong throughout all my life. Just keep hanging in there. I know how hard it is to lose someone you love. I have many posts on here so feel free to look around. I'm babybrat07 in case you ever want to shoot me an email to talk. I'm a pretty good listener. Bless you!

Katie

Hi Netten,

I lost my grandmother in May of 2002. We were really close. She lived far away from me so I didn't get to see her all the time like my cousins did. When she passed away I felt sad and angry. I felt angry because all my cousins had stories about time they shared with grandma. They talked about fun stuff and being at her house. It hurt because I couldn't measure up to the time they got with her. I felt angry because they had more time with her then I did. But I realized that the time I did have with her was special because none of the other cousins had what I had. I feel blessed everyday of my life to have had the grandmother that I had. I think about her all the time. I see t.v. shows or movies that remind me of her. I try to think about the good stuff. The hardest part is everyone saw her before the morphine took her away. I was the only person that didn't make it to see her. All my cousins and my aunts and uncles saw her before she died. I made it to her house five minutes to late. I later decided that she had waited for me, she knew I was coming but she didn't want me to see her go so she went just before I arrived. Whenever we'd go visit she'd meet us at the porch door. When we'd leave to go home she'd stand at the porch door and wave until she couldn't see us anymore. That day I knew that she was at the door with the lord and she was waving until she couldn't see us anymore. The lord has always been on my side and he will always continue to be on my side. You just have to know when to let him in. I hope I've helped you. God Bless!

Katie

Thanks, I wrote this song in like 15 minutes. I thought it was pretty good myself. I'm pretty talented when it comes to writing..

This goes out to any girl/woman who has lost a parent or loved one.. I just wrote it out of the blue.. I hope you all like it.

Christmas Angel

Deck the halls with boughs of holly

Tis' the season to be jolly,

It's the time of year

hugs, laughter and cheer.

Time to decorate the tree

lots of fun for you and me,

add the tinsel and the light

oh what a beautiful sight.

Christmas Just isn't the same

There's no stocking with your name

I wish you were here with me

I wish that I could see

My Christmas Angel

Silent Night, Holy Night

What a glorious sight,

If only you could see

our lovely Christmas tree.

Decorate the house with lights

Makes the world seem so bright,

Hark the Herald Angels Sing

A song for you and me.

Christmas just isn't the same

There's no stocking with your name

I wish you were here with me

I wish that I could see

My Christmas Angel

Joy to the world

From your little girl

who misses you

Oh how I do......

I know it will never be the same

Heaven has a stocking with your name

You can't be here with me

But I'll always believe

My Chistmas Angel

Oh, Oh, Oh

Yeah Yeah

Ooooooh Ooh

Christmas Angel

This is a song that is sung by Beverly Mitchell.. some of you may know her from 7th Heaven as Lucy Camden. She wrote this song after her friend was killed in a car accident.. I hope you guys like it.

Have you ever met an angel

Whose smile is like the sun

Whose laugh is like a melody that reaches everyone

Have you ever hugged an angel

Swept up in their embrace

And swear there’s nothing in this world that makes you feel that day

Have you ever really loved an angel

Once you have you’ll never be the same again

Have you ever had to let go of an angel

Say goodbye, let ‘um fly, my angel…my best friend

Have you felt the strength of an angel

When you needed it the most

Lifted by those gentle wings

You know you’re not alone

Every now and then I feel the peace inside

Wherever life may take me, I’m guided by that light

Have you ever really loved an angel

Once you have you’ll never be the same again

Have you ever had to let go of an angel

Say goodbye, let ‘um fly, my angel…my best friend

I have really loved an angel

I will never be the same again

As I have had to let go of my angel

Say goodbye, let um fly, my angel…my best friend

Lyrics > Beverley Mitchell Lyrics > Beverley Mitchell Angel Lyrics

http://youtube.com/watch?v=gSCHJlC77Rw

Here is a link to her video on youtube if anyone would like to hear the song.

Thanks for posting.. I really like it.

I too know how this goes. For me however I hear it from people that don't know me and what I've been through. I lost a cousin who comitted suicide when he was fourteen. It was really hard for me because we were the same age. I remember a short time after I was at the public pool and one of the staff members was on top of the building and this boy kept yelling jump jump jump. I wanted to hurt him so bad because it was killing me inside. Another thing that upset me was.. (I am a student teacher learning how to be a teacher and I teach under a mentor) anyhow my mentor teacher's brother came and brought her lunch and he is a firefighter and he was talking about having to run to different schools on suicide attempts and it made me want to break down and cry. I however am stronger than that and kept cool. I know how hard it is, I really do.

Standing in the dark

standing all alone

feeling like theres nothing left for me

but then a feeling comes

and I know he's watching.

So I walk on home

in the dark midst of night

maybe there is something left for me

and the feeling comes again

and I know he's there.

God is good

God is great

God is there

everyday.

God is love

God is light

God is there

everynight

God is good.

Standing in my doorway

I drop down on my knees

tell me there is something left for me

and I know he's there

in the warmth of me

oooh oooh oooh

God is good

God is great

God is there

everyday.

God is truth

God is light

God is there

everynight.

oooh oooh oooh

he lights the way.

I lay down in my bed

and close my sleepy eyes

tomorrow soon will be there for me

and I know he's there

in my dreams he cares.

Oh I know..

Oh I know..

God is there

When I was small and little

I'd sit up on his knee

He'd whisper in my ear

and tell me he loved me.

then he'd whisper nothings

and make me giggle loud

if he was here now

he'd be very proud.

We have a lot in common

from our smile to our eyes

when we were together

the world always came to life.

We also shared our birthday

each and every year

And even though he's gone

it's still something we share.

I remember every year

he'd come to be with me

our birthday we would share

my birthday pal and me.

Now he's gone away

The good Lord took him home

I've missed him every day

since he's been gone.

Even though he's gone

I think about the days

when we had so much fun

on all our birthdays

We'll continue to share

our very special day

it comes but once a year

his and my birthday.

I'm dying inside

with nowhere to hide,

My pain is quite real

can't you see how I feel?

Sticks and stones

leave me alone,

Don't call me names

Can't you see my pain?

Chorus:

Don't pick on me

just let me be,

Don't push me down

and bully me around.

You make me weep

I cry myself to sleep,

Why can't you tell

this hurts me like hell.

I'm dying inside

with nowhere to hide,

my self-esteem is low

I have nowhere to go.

Sticks and stones

leave me alone,

I'm hurting inside

what happened to my pride?

Chorus:

Don't pick on me

just let me be,

Don't push me down

and bully me around.

You make me weep

I cry myself to sleep,

Why can't you tell

this hurts me like hell.

You made me say

that I was gay,

But how could I defy

that it was just a lie.

Who do you think you are

you bullied me to far,

It killed me inside

So I took my life.

Chorus:

Now you can't pick on me

You will have to let me be,

You can't push me down

And bully me around.

You made me weep

But I don't cry myself to sleep,

Why couldn't you tell

you hurt me like hell.

Why couldn't you tell

that you were hurting me like hell......

My Grandma

I remember it like it was yesterday

I called you a week before the day.

You said "Katie, I'm going to die."

I sat alone and started to cry.

I waited until the day before

to call you again once more.

I knew you would soon die

it was my turn to say goodbye.

Uncle Mark picked up that day

Morphine made you fade away.

He told me to talk to you

listening was all you could do.

I said, "Grandma I love you

you know that all of us do.

we all want you to know

that it's ok if you let go."

I flew out the very next day

I got there five minutes too late.

I ran inside and started to cry

for I never got to say goodbye.

I will always think about that day

when I got there just a little too late.

Your death I guess wasn't for me to see

but I'll always know, you waited for me.

That is really good. I really really like that. You are a wonderful writer keep up the good work.

Hi emolvr,

You've come to the right place. I lost my grandpa almost three years ago. He was very important to me because I shared my birthday with him. When he passed away I felt like I had lost one of my best friends. My dad left when I was younger too. My mom raised my brother and I by herself. My grandpa came every year for our birthday and sometimes in the summer too. I always loved when he came to visit. I never pictured my life without him in it. I can't say it gets easier but with time you will heal. I am a christian and I believe that God walks with us when we are need of him. I don't know if you have a religion but if you do it's always an idea to pray and talk with God, if not him than a close friend or someone you can confide in. If you need anything feel free to talk with me. I am a great listener.

BabyBrat07

My Grandma

I remember it like it was yesterday

I called you a week before the day.

You said "Katie, I'm going to die."

I sat alone and started to cry.

I waited until the day before

to call you again once more.

I knew that you would soon die

it was my turn to say goodbye.

Uncle Mark picked up that day

Morphine made you fade away.

He told me to talk to you

listening was all you could do.

I said, "Grandma I love you

you know that all of us do.

we all want you to know

that it's ok if you let go."

I flew out the very next day

I got there five minutes to late.

I ran inside and started to cry

for I never got to say goodbye.

I will always think about that day

when I got there just a little too late.

Your death I guess wasn't for me to see

but I'll always know, you waited for me.