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Hi All, I am going back to my home town next Monday which is Easter Monday... I am going to my eye doctor and than my therapist wants me to walk past my old house just to see if I can do it... She wants me to say good bye and finally put house to rest so that I can live free in the house I am in right now... I will leave the old house in the past and move forward... Shelley
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Boy, I thought today was going to be harder than it is.. Last Friday was extremely hard for me, I had so much inside of me racing around and I felt like I was going to burst.. I would be crying at one time, happy the next time, angry right after that.. I just felt like dying so very badly but manage to stay alive and kicking.. Shelley
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Thanks Niamh,
I am trying to get myself back on that bus of life but sometimes I just miss it by a few minutes and than I have to wait for the next chance.. I do believe my mom is looking down at me and saying that she wants me to happy... Shelley
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Hi All,
Well it is April 18th and it has been six years since I said my final good byes and what a day so far... I spend some of it at the local hospital getting tests done, some of it at the local library reading a book, so of it at the mall window shopping and the rest of it so far thinking of everything I have gone through these past six years and wondering what my mom would think of the way I lived my life without her... I did do something in her memory too and now I am at home about to watch her favorite movie on tv waiting to receive a phone call session from my therapist.. I had a really bad weekend and so Suzanne is calling me for a talk.. shelley
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Hi Niamh, Thank you for your nice words, my boss now tells me that they have delayed my moving till late August so I am a little relieved but come August I might be a little nervous.. Shelley
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Hi All,
Just wanted you to know that I am going to be okay on the day and that I am a plan to do things that will help me get through it.. First of all I am going to get a balloon and a copy of my mom's favorite song so i can listen to it.. I am going to go to the park and listen to her favorite song and say a prayer and release the balloon.. I am than going to the local food bank and donate some food and tell them it is it the memory of my mom... I than will go see a movie and go out for dinner.. Shelley
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Hi All,
I still feel like I need to talk to someone but I have figured out that on my mom's death anniversary I am going to go to the nearby park and release a balloon and listen to my mom's favorite song and say a nice prayer... Shelley
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Hi All,
Just wanted to say that I am feeling really low right now, I am really missing my mom now and really needs someone to understand what I am feeling.. Shelley
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Hi All,
Well here I sit all alone again tonight and just thinking of everything I have been through lately and wondering if I am ever going to get through this grief journey... I find that the more the time goes by I am having the worst of times.. Such as I miss my mom at everything holiday and birthday.. I fear I am going to forget her voice and what she looks like... It is going to be 7 years this monday and I can hardly believe she has been gone that long.. Shelley
Thanks to everyone who posted here... Shelley
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Hi mfh,
Thanks for the reply, I know I wish I could talk with my mom but she is gone and I am left to fend for myself.. I do not any friends and the family just does not want to talk about things... I just need to vent with someone face to face but have no one..Shelley
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Hi Nicholas,
I actually talk to my favorite stuffed dog named hope and it does the trick sometimes but other times I just need a human to talk too... I also talk to the family dog too.. Thanks Nicholas I really appreciate your post.. Shelley
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FORGET IT I DO NOT NEED TO TALK ANYMORE.... I NEEDED TO TALK YESTERDAY AND EVERYONE GAVE ME THE BOOT SO THAT IS WHY I KEEP THINGS IN ALL THE TIME... I HAVE NO ONE TO TALK TO EXCEPT FOR MY NOTHERAPIST AND EVEN WITH HER SHE IS GETTING TIRED OF HEARING IT FROM ME...
NO WORDS IN ME ANYMORE I AM ALL GRIEVED OUT....
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Hi All,
Have you ever got to the point that you needed to talk to someone but could not find anyone to talk too... I am in that way tonight, I have no one to talk to tonight... Sometime I just do not know why I am so unhappy but tonight it is that I am really missing my mom and it is getting so close to the day she died.. I am remembering the trip to Las Vegas and all the times we had together and it is really making me sad right now... Shelley
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Hi All, When I left my home town I left all my friends behind, I have been in my new place for almost seven years and still do not have any real friends.. I have fears that people will leave me behind and so here I am, I do everything alone.. Shelley
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Hi All, Well as most of you know it is coming up to the seventh year since I lost my mom, and at seven years I thought it would not hurt as much but there is still a unplesant feeling when the day comes... I get so upset and want her with me, last year I kept really busy and took just a little time to remember her and I was okay with that and I guess if this is the way it has to be than so be it.. Shelley
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Hi All,
I just heard from my brother who has Chelsea and he told me that her seizures are getting worst and she is not climbing the stairs anymore... I just worry so much for her and I want to see her but I am scared that I will just cry when I see her and how bad she is getting... I fear another death of someone special to me.. If I do not see her though I will never forgive myself that I left her when she really needed me...Shelley
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Hi All, I have been at the job for seven months now and found out that I am being transferred to another school... I am so nervous it was so hard starting here and now I have to start fresh in another school... Keep your fingers crossed and I will let you all know how the first day goes... I am starting at the new school May 1st... Shelley
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Hi RonB,
Thank you for your post, I so want to keep my family name real and not give in to people who want me to be included in their families... I am proud of the name and I know people are trying to help but I am a starkey and proud to be one... I want to visit my dad's side of the family and start meeting his side of the family and get to know them all better.. Shelley
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Hi Carolyn,
I actually lived with my parents until they died in 2005, they both died that year four months apart.. We sold the house I month after dad's death.. Mom died in April and dad died in August and so the house sold in September which was extremely hard on me... I had to pack up the house have the yard sales and give away my parents things and it was so hard...Shelley
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Hi Den,
I just wanted to say that I am sorry for all the losses you have suffered and the medical condition you may have... I feel so bad for you and can not even imagine what you are going through... Seven years ago I lost my parents four months apart and I left my childhood home where I lived for over 25 years with the move I left all my friends and neighbors and also my job... I moved to a different city where I did not know anyone..I also have now realized I am was sexual abuse and emotional abuse by my father.. I have issues with depression and anxiety as well as I have diabetes too... SORRY AGAIN SHELLEY
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Hi All,
In two weeks I will be returning to the town I lived in for over 25 years and I can not even imagine how I am going to feel about being there... Shelley
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Hi All,
As April 18th is coming soon, I just want to say something again about my dear mom
ROSES ARE RED
VIOLETS ARE BLUE
SUGAR IS SWEET
AND I LOVE YOU
LOVE SHELLEY
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Thanks Everyone, for all your posts in this area, I have been really low lately... I have gone back on my meds and still hate having to take pills... I am coming up to the 7th anniversary of my mom's death and eventhough it has been 7 years I still miss her so very much.. I have been told at work I am going to be relocated to another school and I hate the idea of starting somewhere all over again... How sad is it now??? Shelley
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Hi Carol Ann,
Thanks for all the nice things you have done for me, I am twelve days away from my mom's death anniversary and I am constantly thinking of memories and wondering what it would be like to talk to her one last time to see what she thinks about how I am handling things down her... I think she would be happy with how I have done so far... Shelley
It Will Be Seven Years This Year
in Loss of a Parent or Grandparent
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Hi Marty,
I am going to make my mom proud of me, I am going to be the strong and caring person she taught me to be... Thanks for all the encouragement.. Shelley