waabzy Posted October 9, 2007 Report Share Posted October 9, 2007 Well it has been 11 days now since my beloved Nvwati has been gone. It feels like 11 years in so many ways. Never did I know it was possible to cry so many tears and still have any fluid left in our bodies.I mostly followed my gut with Mkwaa. I speak with her about Nvwati, mentioning his name daily. At first her little ears would perk up and she would look around as if he would come strolling in any moment but now she seems to know he is gone forever. Still I whisper in her ear daily , telling her how very special she is to me and how we now need to carry each other through our grief.She still frantically paces our home looking for her brother but seems to figure out sooner now that she wont find him here. Mostly she lays on my bed, the last spot Nvwati lay before that fateful trip to the Animal Hospital.Both Nvwati and Mkwaa had their own teddy bears. Ironically they only chose their own to go to bed with at night. Never had Mkwaa even tried to claim his, and not because he would have been nasty about it........Nvwati was such a gentle spirit that he wouldnt have minded at all.Strange how since Nvwati has been gone Mkwaa sleeps with his teddy bear now. I even took her out and bought her a new one but I guess she can smell him on it and prefers this one. This is ok.She has also claimed Nvwati's bandana and everyone tells her how very beautiful she is in it too!Its a day at a time thing, this healing process. Miigwetch (Thank you!) Nvwati for being such an important part of our lives, our family, our protector for so long. We love and miss you dearly. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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