Guest Gamer205 Posted May 22, 2008 Report Share Posted May 22, 2008 For those that haven't seen my orgional post here is my story:http://hovforum.ipbhost.com/index.php?showtopic=458Here I go again approaching 4 years since my best friend's death and I am finding that I haven't really got better,You would think I would have but the situwation is diffrent in me and my friend's caseYou See as I have told some know on here and some do not but I am a special needs person and when I was born I was 3 months premature and had to have a surgery called a colostomy and was born on December 22nd 1982 I deal with depression and mood swings and also deal with ADHD.I have mostly friends in my family my best friend that was outside family he was disabled too so We could relate to each other much more and We like I wrote in my orgional story we were like brothers,and I just can't seem to get over his loss or death,We both knew what it ment to not be able to do certin things like everybody else could and We were into the same kind of stuff,We were like real brothers.Maybe there is something wrong with me I don't know but I just can't seem to move on,May 31st makes 4 years and its been very hard on me and I've never forgot him one time during the time that has gone by,I miss what I don't have the friendship the going over his house the talking all night on the phone I feel as if my world has just stopped over the last 4 years and I am just a diffrent person walking threw life,I hope it makes sense to some I just can't seem to get passed it,I've thought at times that I was moveing on or that it was going to get better in time but I find it hasen't,I stay angry sometimes thinking on how his life was cut short in a car accident,he was not the driver he was with his mother and she was a very good driver she just turned thought all was clear but they was hit head on,she stayed in the hospital for over 3 months,couldn't even attend her own son's funeral,and he was killed instantly,I've never been able to get passed the what if?I'm just so sad about everything and even though it has been 4 years it dosen't really seem like it,I mean I was friends with him for over 10 years you can't erase that in just 4 years,I feel at times that I have lossed myself.Thank you for you all's support and I hope I haven't rambled too much.Signed-Gamer205Robert Fraley Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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