If I Only Knew...

[missyme]

If I only knew that it was the last time I was going to see you I would have hugged you longer.

If I only knew that it would be our last conversation I would have never hung up. I would have told you how much you have meant to me all my life. I would have told you how smart I have always thought you were and how it amazed me that you had the answer to every question I ever asked and you never made me feel inferior for having to ask. I would have told you how much I admired your quiet strength. And that growing up in the same house I knew how hard it was and I shared your hurts. I would have told you how thankful I was to you all these years. How generous and selfless you were. Most of al I would have told you how much I love you and how much I really would miss you if you were gone. And how terrible it ill be for all of us without "Johnny". And how much I really need my brother. And that I'll never be the same