emptyinside Posted October 28, 2010 Report Share Posted October 28, 2010 Does anyone feel like they're going crazy because you're just a bundle of nerves? Sometimes I am so on edge I can't sleep at all. The grief comes back full force during these times. I don't know what my life is supposed to mean now. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
niamh Posted October 29, 2010 Report Share Posted October 29, 2010 so sorry Em, I do find that I can get really nervous, something will trigger it most of the time for me, something stressful mostly times it will be something that I would have gone straight to Dad about and he would sort it and/or sort me, now there's nobody to "take" that worry away from me, take away that scared feeling. as you well know, tv is my outlet and sometimes I will cling to it so much when that nervous feeling hits. Sometimes I will keep telling myself aswell over and over that this life is temporary, I'm not stuck here forever, that it's only a stopover and my Dad is on the other side waiting for me to get there. Does this always work, nope it doesn't, sometimes I just cry cry and cry about it all, sometimes I feel like everything inside me is just going to burst out because I'm so sad and want him back so badly. I try to tell myself that the nervous feeling will pass or I just tell myself that I don't care about anything anyways, that there is no point worrying about anything because someday I'll just be out of here anyways. As for what my life means now, I struggle a lot with that, it's not that I don't think I'm important but I do wonder so much about my purpose here, of course right now it's for my Mom, that much I do know but outside of that I struggle to find any meaning for my life. (((HUGS))) to ya honey xox Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Ron B. Posted October 29, 2010 Report Share Posted October 29, 2010 Em, When my stress level is high I sometimes do feel like I'm losing my grip. About 5 months into grief (last March) the business of dividing my mother's belongings between other family members almost pushed me over the edge. At that time I developed pneumonia! Add to that serious friction with a sibling! That's when I made a decision to work with a mental health professional. That helped stabilize me within a couple weeks. Other than a 'crisis' situation when the stress is high, I have noticed that even minor stress will bring on grief. My levels of emotionality and self doubt spike when I'm confronted with things I'm not sure how to handle. I sometimes get restless and sleep fitfully because of worry. Even a cup of coffee can make me overly anxious. Like almost everyone else here, I am faced with rebuilding my life after the loss of someone very dear to me. I am not sure what to do a lot of the time! That's when I feel lost and I have to struggle to recover a sense of purpose. Things that help stabilize me? A daily routine that includes exercise. Regular contact with friends and family members. Projects that will better my life, which are doable with persistent effort. Other than that I am struggling just like you. Ron B. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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