butterflygrl Posted December 17, 2005 Report Share Posted December 17, 2005 I'm only 18 I feel like I'm the youngest one here. This is my first Christmas without both of my parents and with me living on my own. I was in a foster home last christmas and they kept me so busy I didnt have a whole lot of time to break down. I finally started to grieve for my mom then my dad died in June to add to everything. My mom was my world and I still miss her more than anything. They just sold my old house the one where I bought a new tree and decorated it for her before she came home from the hospital after a surgery. I grew up in that house. I'm in my own apartment now I bought a lil tree and decorated it I went through the routine of buying Christmas presents for everyone, But it's not the same. I think i'm finally coming to grips with the fact that I'm here and they're both gone and neither are coming back. My apartment has looked for months like I just moved in. I think it's because I was hoping this was like all the foster homes i've been in over the 6 months before I turned 18. Although I think I was hoping to go home when I turned 18 and have things back the way they used to be.I've never felt like this was really my home. I still have my moms medical card and her blockbuster card and its just so hard to let go of that stuff. I know I need to let this go it's just hard to do. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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