lorraine Posted January 30, 2006 Report Share Posted January 30, 2006 18 months ago my father died of a heart attack. As the closest person to him, I arranged for his burial and closed off his life. 6 weeks later I received a call that my mother was found dead, she had taken an overdose. Ironically I had spoken to her the day before she died and we had also exchanged email, so although I knew my mum would go this way eventually, I did not expect it. Especially as I was getting married 3 months later and her main life goal left was to walk me down the aisle i.e. she was disabled and she was practising being able to walk comfortably. I closed off my mums life, fought for more than a year with insurance companies who refused to deal with any suspected suicides and tried moved on in my life without my parents. I thought I had. )I should add 6 months before my dad died my best friend died of cancer, followed by my godmother 2 months later)More than 18 months later I have started to experience "anxiety attacks", severe breathing problems, heartache and feelings of being overwhelmed. My own personal life is wonderful with lots of loving so I know the attacks are not coming from the present. I do not want to see a doctor because I do not want to take drugs, I would like to learn to release this heartache but am not sure where to begin. I'd like to think time would be the release but I don't think so, what would people recommend?Lorraine Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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