I lost my dad on Thanksgiving day. I also miss not knowing that he is home, waiting for me to come by. In his last months, he became unable to care for his needs by himself. It was difficult for him to allow his daughter to help him with toileting. After one especially awkward afternoon, after I helped him back to his recliner he looked up and said how much he appreciated me. He said that if I ever needed help, to call him. That is the nature of dads. Even though he could hardly walk he wanted to help me. I know you miss your dad terribly. There is no one that knows you as he did. You will miss him over the next months and it will manifest itself when you least expect it. That is the nature of grief. The more you grieve, I feel, is a tribute to how much you cared for him. So I suggest that you cry when you need to, journal if it helps and be in a bad mood when you must. However, when you can get past the last few bad days he had and connect with all the wonderful days you two had together, you will be on the road to coming to terms with the loss. You will never forget him or stop feeling the loss but you will put it in perspective with the rest of your life. Good luck...Still a Daughter