Hi Chris,
Sorry for the loss and the remainder of that loss but what i would wish to say is this, the remainder of it is all normal and it will come to and end if anything, you will be saying it with joy than it seems now. I have been there and it is fun and an encouragement talking and remembering him.Well i lost my husband 2007 Dec and it was not any easy i have cried, sobed before people and more often felt ashamed after that but the secret is remind the maker everytime it happens or you get to that and ask for courage to face it, before long, i assure you that it will be history.It may seem tough and not easy but i have experienced it working.
Lastly as you do that crying, it is therapeutic you crying out the agony and you cannot remain the same you will finish relieved and feeling much better be humble to yourself it will be over soon than you anticipated.
Wishing you the best
pamela